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November 19 stressed outThis just might be my last blog, Im so stressted out over important issues
about my family , Im ready to go home and hang myself!!!!!!!!! November 17 Final Draft of Heavens Raine the Fairy Tale. by De McCoyHEAVENS RAINE THE FAIRYTALE (*by De McCoy)
Once upon a time lived a King and Queen, of the Immaculate Kingdom who lived in a castle far,far,far away, after several years of marriage, the King Christ and his wife Queen Heaven conceived a very special, and magnificent daughter they named Raine. While the King was away, The Queen and Princess were in the nursery, it was nursing time, The Princess had'nt fiinished her morning breakfast, and was still at her mothers's breast when a evil Demon stormed the castle, killed the Queen's bodyguard and stole the young baby Princess away from Queen Heaven. Queen Heaven was wrought with greif and saddness and could not contain herself. The Queen went mad, while she waited for the King to return home to his castle. and locked herself away in a tower behind a large mote, so that no one would find her, Months passed by and finally the King came back and recieved the tragic news about his baby Princess Raine and his wife the Queen. The King's council had told the King of his wife's madness, and how she had locked herself away in the tower, and refused to eat or sleep until the baby had been safley returned, to the royal couple, when the King went to her in the tower he reminded his wife that she must have strong faith, a faith that could move a mountain, and bring their daughter back to them. The King sought out an Good Witch named Christina who is a see'or to help find the baby Princess, and let his whole Kingdom know that he would reward a large ransom for the safe return of their baby Princess. and also warned his Kingdom that if anyone harbored the Evil Demon in their house who had stole the precious royal Princess, they would be put on the Garrett Cross, and the King and Queen's Golden snakes would devour them on the cross, right before their very eyes. The King and Queen were not aware of an evil so dispicable that had grown in their Kingdom, that it took the Good Witch Christina several years to investigate the dissapearance of Princess Raine, after all, Christina's visions came when they wanted to ,and were not necessarily in order. The first vision, Christina the Good Witch had seen was on Grand Avenue where a Demonic Church had set up in King Christ and Queen Heaven's Kingdom, and were turning the good people into Demons, inlisting them as demonic soilders for the Evil Demon who had stole the baby Princess Raine. The evil demon's name was found to be Rumpindick. Rumpindick, was an aged, evil old man who had lusted after Queen Heaven before she had married the King Christ, and King Christ had thrown Rumpindick out of the Royal Court, and forced him into a pauper's shack outside the main gate of the Kingdom for his offence against the Queen. Rumpindick once worked with chemicals for the King and Queen, that helped with the hosekeepers's at the castle, and accidently discovered a chemical that made people temporaily invisible known as the "Midst:" Rumpindick knew of how he could assault the Queen and finally get his revenge against the Royal couple, by making himself and his evil follower's invisible and wreck havock on the Immaculate Kingdom of King Christ and Queen Heaven, and so Rumpindick set his evil plan into action. After the first vision Christina had seen, she was alarmed, and quickly went and found the King and notified him of the " Evil Midist" she had seen. The King and Queen were in their private chambers located at the West Windsor Wing of the castle, known as the Station where Christina told the King and Queen of what she had seen with her own eyes, at the Church on Grand Ave. "My Lord, there was a line of people walking to the Church where a mist was being sprayed in the courtyard, and when the men walked into the spray, they would walk away, and as I watched with my own eyes they dissapperared ." It horrorified the Royal couple. The second vision from the good Witch Christina, took Christina back in time, to when Queen Heaven was a little girl, it confused Christina a bit, but like the first vision, she reported to the King Christ and Queen Heaven what she had seen. "My Lord King Christ, and Queen Heaven, my second vision is of Heaven as a baby, she was an abortion that the sephriam Angel's had gaurded and raised her for appearance's sake, Gabriel her Father, and her Mother Theresa had left her at another Angels house to raise, In my vision the Angels Heaven was left with was actually an evil witch that cursed Heaven and her future family, and lied to her about her exsistance, and where she truly came from." The King Christ replied "Yes my wife knows of these things, and when we married I told her these important details". "But my Lord King Christ, replied Christina, There is more to my vision, that you must consider, for in that vision holds the key for the safe return of your precious Princess Raine" King Christ asked the good Witch Christina what else she seen. "There are those at the castle who have turned Evil, and have tried to claim that Queen Heaven has a sister" Queen Heaven said loudly "I know I do not have a sister!, for my Mother Thersea is a Saint, and bore five, four are brothers, and myself". The evil witch that had raised me is the one who is a soul swapper. and lies with Demons, I feel that her and Rumpindick are in conspeiracy and hiding our precious Princess Raine". The evil witch Mis"T and Rumpindick put a evil spell and curse on the word Everything, and anytime the good people of the Immaculate Kingdom would hail King Christ and Queen Heaven, no one would hear Queen Heaven, but they would hear ""Queen of Everthing", which the evil witch Mis'T claimed as herself. The Immaculate Kingdom fell under a haze of confusion and the good people started turning evil, and doing ungodly things, including using the evil mist that Rumpindick made to hurt the King and Queen. Theft, robbery, rape and murder became common in the Kingdom, which infurited King Christ and his Queen. The Immaculate Kingdom never had a need for a jail or prison, there was only the Garrett Cross which was used rarely by the Golden snakes. King Christ seen that his Kingdom was in need of some changes, since the Good Witch Christina had told them of the evil curse that was placed upon his Kingdom, he decided to build a large buliding that became the Prison that occupied the sinners, Because no one would confess or repent of their sins, and since the King knew of the curse, he knew what was best for the once "good people" who were under the evil curse and he was trying to save those people from the evil curse and from going to the Garrett Cross. Now there was a young man who was a Prince from a neigboring Kindom, that had traveled to the Immaculate Kindom to help find the missing Princess Raine, he had heard of the tragic news from his Father the King of Plenty, the young Prince's name was William. Prince William was known in his land as a renounced tracker who trained his Shepard's to locate missing items, knowing how well his shepard's Sugar and Spice were at locating and spotting evil, as well as hunting wild beasts and fowl creatures, he came into King Christ and Queen Heaven's court and asked the King and Queen's council if he would be allowed freedom to travel about the Immaculate Kingdom to help find Princess Raine. Once King Christ and Queen Heaven heard the news, they wanted to meet Prince William, and the shepard's that they had heard about from the council. Prince William said "Good day my Lord, may I aid in finding your daughter Princess Raine, with my specialy trained shepard's Sugar an Spice?" King Christ replied "Good day my son, I am pleased to meet you, and I joyfully welcome you to help finding our Princess Raine." "As well how is your father the King of Plenty, is he doing well these days?" The Prince of Plenty replied "My Father, the King of Plenty is well, and asked me to come to help you my Lord" Queen Heaven was elated over meeting Prince William, and asked the Good Witch Christina to aid Prince William by giving him a magical Immaculate amulet that would keep him safe from falling under the evil curse that was now on the Immaculate Kingdom. The King and Queen told Prince William where they could start looking for Princess Raine, and where they last heard Rumindick and the evil witch Mis'T was located, but warned Prince William about the evil mist that turned men into demons and made them invisible. The King Christ and Queen Heaven blessed the young Prince of Plenty and his shepard's Sugar and Spice and sent him on his way. The Prince of Plenty was now on his way out into the Immacuate Kingdom with his shepard's Sugar and Spice to locate and find Princess Raine. Christina the Good Witch was excited with news for King Christ and Queen Heaven, she had a vision of Princess Raine playing in the meadow and singing "Jesus love's me". Christina ran to the Station where the King and Queen were at to give them the good news. "My Lord King Christ and Queen Heaven I have great news of my latest vision. Princess Raine is playing in a meadow and singing "Jesus love's me". Queen Heaven burst into tears and told King Christ that she always sang the song "Jesus love's me" to Princess Raine while she was nursing, and that she was singing that song when Rumindick the evil demon burst into the nursey and stole the Princess. After several days of travel the Prince of Plenty William and his two shepard's stopped outside the main gate of the Immaculate Kingdom, not too far from the pauper shacks to rest, and found shelter from a fair maiden who was drawing water from a well for her mother and brothers. Prince William introuduced his self to the young maiden, and asked "My fair maiden may I inquire of your name?" The young maiden replied "My name is Jennifer, May I offer you assistance on your travels, I have never seen you here in this land, Are you traveling from afar?" Prince William replied "Yes I am from a neigboring Kingdom, and I am in search of Princess Raine who is from the Immaculate Kingdom, my name is William, I am a tracker, and my shepard's and myself need shelter from the cold weather, can you be so kind as too oblige?" " I come from the land of Plenty and can pay you well for my stay." Prince William stated. The young maiden Jennifer replied "I have heard of the tragedy of Princess Raine and her family and of the curse of the Immaculate Kingdom, I am so sad for her mother and father, King Christ and Queen Heaven." "I must tell you I have to ask my mother first since it is just my brothers and myself taking care of our ill mother, she has taken to the bed, but I am quite sure she will allow you and your shepard's safe shelter out of the cold." Jennifer ran into her cottage and knelt beside her mother's bed and asked the ill woman of William's request. The ill woman replied "The young man may stay but his shepard's must stay outside, and leave a small portion for his stay." Jennifer went back to William who was standing outside by the well with his two shepards and relayed what her mother had said. Jennifer did not know that William was actually the Prince of Plenty and gave him the news. "My mother said you may find shelter inside our cottage, but your shepard's must remain outside." Prince William being the kindly, and level headed Prince that he was politley said "I am sorry, but I must stay with the shepard's, they are special tracking dogs that are of my great assistance in tracking lost items, and I cannot have them outside away from my sight." " Is there anywhere else we may find shelter?" Jennifer thought what a strange young man, he must really love his dogs, Jennifer replied "We have a barn out in the back of the cottage, and there is a rock pit where you may make a fire to keep you and your dogs warm for the night." Prince William paid her three shilling's for her mother, and four to Jennifer because he took great fondness of her. Jennifer graciously took the shilling's and gathered some wood for the fire for William, and showed him to the barn. Dusk came, and Prince Wiiliam settled down in the barn with Sugar and Spice, he fed and watered the shepard's and made his bed on some hay, and fell fast asleep. Just before dawn, Sugar and Spice started growling and barking visiously and woke the young Prince up, Sugar and Spice ran towards the evil creature they sensed and attacked a dark black creature that was out in the woods. Prince William ran to the dogs to see what the dogs had attacked and had in their jowles. Black Feathers were flying everywhere, and a strange odor was coming from the creature that the dogs were now gnawing and biting and holding down on the ground. The smell was atrousious it made the Prince vomit. Prince William knew this was an evil he had never came across before and commanded Sugar and Spice to disarm the creature. The hounds of Plenty, the two shepard's Sugar and Spice were tearing and ripping the black wings of this evil creature to shreds. The evil demon was screaming with pain, and begging for mercy to have the dogs off of it. Prince WIlliam pulls the dogs off with a command "Fooy lostus" Sugar and Spice let loose of whats left of the evil creature, black feathers still swirling about, Prince William commands the dogs to hold the evil creature while Prince William ties up what is left of the demon. The stench still making the young Prince nauseous, notices the demon has a spray gun attached to the demons belt, the smell was of roach and termite chemicals, and that the chemicals were dripping off the demon, The demon was franticly trying to grab the spray gun, but with out its arms of black feathers the demon was unsuccesful in its attempts . After three minutes of wrestling with the ties, that were holding the demon down, the demon start's to become more human like. Now the demon looking more like a human start's to bleed profusly, and ask's the Prince for help. The demon asked "Please help stop my bleeding, for I will die if I do not have help tying my wounds off." Prince William replied "NO! Not until you tell me what you know in the disapperance of Princess Raine of the Immaculte Kingdom, and where I will find her and Rumpindick, the evil old man who stole her from King Christ and Queen Heaven!" The demon replied " Rumpindick and the Queen of Everything are within a mile from here." Prince William loudly said," I know of no Queen of Everything, who is the fool who calls herself this?" The demon replied "She is known as the evil witch Mis'T, and she lays with Rumpindick at his shack in the pauper's quarters, her evil plan is to steal King Christ away from Queen Heaven and ruin their Kingdom with evil and ungodlyness, and let Rumpindick assault Queen Heaven and lock her in his pauper's shack to be his slave, the young Princess Raine he will take for bride if their evil plan does not work, thats why he stole the baby Princess Raine from Queen Heaven and King Christ." Prince WIlliam gathers his things about, calls the shepards and starts to take the demon back to the barn, it is close to daylight and he notice's a light is on at the cottage, where the young maiden Jennifer is rising to care for her brother's and mother. She looks out the window, and is horrifed at the sight of William and the bleeding man walking towards the cottage, she drops the eggs she has in her hands, and screams to her brothers, "John,and Duke you must come at once!, The young man who paid three shillings, for his stay last night in the barn, is in need of your immediate assistance. He has a man with him who is bleeding." Hurry run to him outside,and take him these rags, he might need them for the man who is bleeding." " And dont tell mother she will freak out, So you must be quite, make sure they go to the barn and not the cottage" Jennifer stated as she knealt down to clean up the broken eggs. John and Duke run to William, and tell William what their sister had said. John the eldest of the boys notice that the shepard's have black feathers in their jowls, and asked William what has the dogs been eating. " Sir what is it in the dogs mouth" Prince William replied,"Those are feathers from this man who is evil, Do you have a place I can keep him, while I go and find Princess Raine?" John replied "Yes we have a deeper pit just beyond the rock pit where we slay the animals we eat. John pondered as he showed Willliam where the deep pit was located, and asked William "Why are you putting a man down in this pit?" Prince William stated infaticly " This looks like a man, but looks are decieving, this in an evil demon who has been wrecking havock on King Christ and Queen Heaven's Immaculate Kingdom, and you must do as I ask, I come from the land of Plenty and I will reward you well for keeping to what I ask and need of you boy's." Prince William see's that the young boy's are frightened an takes enlightingment upon both of the boys, Prince William ask's the boys " Would you like to have a job for the day while I go out and finish the task of finding Princess Raine, It might take a day or more until I return, but I assure you I will pay you double for doing a job well done if you agree to the service I ask of you? John takes Duke aside and talks this over with his younger brother. The brother's agree to help William. John and Duke eagerly assure William that they want the job and are capable of a job well done. Prince William throws the demon down into the deep pit, and ask's the boys to bring some timber to put atop the wall of the deep pit, and instructs the boys to light the fire inorder to keep the demon down in the pit. Prince William tells both boys to keep the timbers a fire so the demon does not come out of the pit and harms the two boys. "Remember boys, keep the timbers blazing while I am gone." Prince William states, as he and his shepard's take off to the pauper's quarters a mile from the cottage. Sugar and Spice start their tracking and leads Prince William right to Rumpindick and the evil witch Mis'T shack. Prince William quitely guides the shepard's around the shack and puts his finger up close to his mouth instructing the shepard's to be quite. Sugar crinckles her nose and sniffs real loudly and turns her head to the right just as the front door of the shack opens. Prince William looks and is astonished at what he sees. A little girl about the age of three years, with beautiful golden red hair and electric blue eyes walks out the door and she sees Sugar, and instanly Prince William knows he has found the magnificent Princess Raine of the Immaculate Kingdom. Prince William points to Princess Raine to instruct Sugar to go to the little girl and preocupie the Princess, while He goes into the shack and captures the evil Rumpindick and his evil witch Mis'T Sugar and Spice are playing with Princess Raine in the meadow outside the quarters, and Princess Raine is singing "Jesus Love's Me" to the shepards as Prince William walks out of the shack with his prisoners. Princess Raine ask's where are my mother and father to Prince William, and wants to know the name of the two dogs she is playing with. "Who are you? and where is my mother and father I miss them terribly. I like your dogs, may I ask their name?" Princess Raine sweetly whispers. Prince William, tells the Princess "My name is Prince William and I come from the land of Plenty, I heard you had been taken from your mother and father, and knew my shepard's Sugar and Spice would be able to track you down and take you back home to castle." Princess Raine smiled really big and then started to cry. Sugar and Spice both licked the Princess's tears and she gigled softly. Prince William picked up the magnificent little Princess and put her on his shoulders, and commaned Sugar and Spice to stay on his prisoners as he headed back to the outskirts of the Immaculate Kingdom. All the while walking back to the cottage Prince William and Princess Raine were singing in unisom "Jesus Love's Me" to each other to pass time during their journey back home. The evil Rumpindick and the evil witch Mis'T were holding their ears cursing infront of the two, with Sugar and Spice keeping the two prisoners in line nipping at the evil ones heels if they dared looked back at Prince William and Princess Raine. The cottage where Jennifer and the two, John and Duke were now in sight for Prince William, he knew he had to take care of the two boys and pay their wages for a job well done. Jennifer seen the two prisioners followed by the shepard's and William with Princess Raine on William's shoulders as she was gazing out the window. Jennifer ran outside to help William and shouted "Hallelujah you have found Princess Raine! King Christ and Queen Heaven will be so happy, It is truly a joyous day!" Prince William replied " Yes how true that is, Can I ask you for your assistance with Princess Raine, I need you to watch over her while I finish my business out back with your brother's" "My dogs need water, and I need to pay your brother's for the job they have " Jennifer proudly stated to William, "I am going too clean the Princess up before she goes home, and feed her," William nodded his head as if to agree. Prince William took Princess Raine off his shoulder's and placed her in Jennifer's arms, and Jennifer and Princess Raine went into the cottage. Prince William walked back to the barn with the prisoner's and the shepard's to give them some water. John and Duke watched as William walked back to the barn, and noticed the prisoner's Rumindick, and the evil witch Mis'T in tow as the shepard's nipped at their heels. Duke jumped off his post at the deep pit and shouted "You found the evil one, Thank the Lord." and smiled . John was smiling, as he stood next to the deep pit, and stated "The curse of the Immaculate Kingdom will soon be lifted, do you need help in getting these three sinners back to the Kingdom to give to King Christ and Queen Heaven?" "Why yes dear boys I do need help." the young Prince of Plenty replied. "Here is the shillings I promised the two of you" and handed each boys six shilling's for a job well done." The two boys were extremly happy for neither had ever had that much in their hand at one time. and smiled at William, and thanked him for the job. William then pulled the two boys aside and said, "I am afraid I have not told you all there is to know, about myself, for I am actually the Prince of the land of Plenty, and I have taken fondness of your sister, and want her as my bride, will you two give her to me, since I notice no father in your house." "I will also bring your mother to the Kingdom of the Land of Plenty, so she can recieve treatment and be healed of her illness." John and Duke did not know what to say to the Prince, and both looked at each other and bowed down to him. Prince William acknowled, and said "For if your sister agress to marry , you both will be in our court." The boys ran to the cottage, told thier sister of the news, and Jennifer was so happy, she ran to Prince William with Princess Raine in her arms and agreed to marry the Prince of Plenty. John and Duke gathered their horses's for Prince William, Princess Raine and their sister, and themselves for it was a couple days journey to the castle where King Christ and Queen Heaven were at. They hobbled the prisoner's feet and tied them with rope to the back of the horse's and made them walk all the way back. Sugar and Spice did there job as usual and nipped and bit the prisoner's feet if they got out of line on the journey back to the Immaculate Kingdom. The Prince of Plenty took Princess Raine right into King Christ and Queen 's private chambers in the castle. The King and Queen shouted with joy for the return of their magnificent Princess Raine. King Christ asked the Prince of Plenty "Where is Rumpindick and the evil witch Mis'T? "They must pay for their sins immediatly! Prince Willlam replied "John and Duke have taken them to the Garrett Cross to be fed to the Golden snakes." "Well done my son, you make you Father proud indeed." "After my Golden snakes feed on this evil I shall tell the King and Queen of Plenty how great their son Prince William of Plenty is, and grant you anything you or your Kingdom need" Prince William replied "On my journey I found my new bride to be, her name is Jennifer, her brother's John and Duke are at the Garret Cross with the prisioner's Rumpindick and the evil witch Mis'T The King Christ replied "Did Rumpindick tell of where the evil midst is located so I can destroy the compound, So the good people of my Kingdom shall not be affected again?" "Yes, It is in his pauper's shack in the quarter's just outside the main gate of the Kingdom." Prince WIlliam proudly stated. King Christ was elated that the evil mist was located, thanks to the Prince of Plenty, and sent the King's army out to locate and destroy the chemical compound. All the good people hail'ed King Christ and Queen Heaven , and gave great thanks to the Immaculate Kingdom's new hero Prince WIlliam of the Kingdom of the Land of Plenty The Good Witch Christina made way and was so excited to see Queen Heaven with Princess Raine playing in the courtyard, singing "Jesus love's me" to each other she proudly tells the King "My Lord King Christ I am pleased to see all is well with you and the Queen, surely now the evil curse has been lifted and those who were imprsoned have been purged and cleansed of their sins" King Christ replied "Alas Christina all is right, the Kingdom will never be afflicted by those those evil beings again." King Christ and Queen Heaven made the joyfull occassion a royal holiday, and told the good people of the Immaculate Kingdom after the festivle of the Golden snake's where all good people will watch the evil disappear on the Garrett Cross, The Immaculete Kingdom will host a Royal Wedding for their hero Prince William of the Land of Plenty,and his bride Princess Jennifer with his Royal parents, being the guest of honor King Soloman and Queen Athena, of the Kingdom of the Land of Plenty along with their heirs, Princess Charlene and Princess Lillie, Prince Alex, Prince Cole, Prince Sunshine, and Princess Stephanie, with the flower girl, Princess Taylor,of the Kingdom of the Land of Plenty. Their neighbors next door. After the Royal Wedding the the Immaculate Kingdom hosted for The Kingdom of the Land of Plenty,the good people of the Immaculate Kingdom and King Christ and Queen Heaven and Princess Raine lived happily ever after. The End (by De McCoy 11/14/09) November 10 STRESSED OUTI AM SO STRESSED OUT, WITH NO OUT LET FOR THE PRESSURE I AM UNDER.
I AM ABOUT TO GO CRAZY IN THIS LITTLE TOWN OF BASTROP,LA November 02 ATHENA ONASISSWell It has been a long time since I have blogged, My son is living with me again, and we have moved to Bastrop La. I am really ready to go back to Texas, I hope all had a great Halloween, as for me and mine, we are still fighting evil, I know my true calling and that is the Slayer that I AM. I no longer am friends with Linda, Marrissa, or her evil Mother(Linda's) who I use to call Saint Frances.
Back in July Linda dropped me off at my apartment in Collinston, La and had the odasity to tell me that Jesus Christ is not real, nor my friend.
I had to sever ties with the whole family. As well I also discovered that, who I thought I had came from, was a total lie, and that I actually have had
angels who are in fact demons try to say I was related to them, they are called the Hastings, I found a photo I took of my son Cole which was in Tyler, Tx several years back with a throw away Kodak camera and at first there was only his image sitting at the bar in the kitchen, after June 12, 2009 the image of a EVIL ANGEL known as Missti Hastings or Missti Gilbreath, was caught in the film and had appeared at the edge.
Needless to say I realized all the lies certian entities have tried to tell me were apparentlyy NON TRUTHS.
I have been Slaying these demons, and continue to stay true to ATHENA, my first past life, tht now is my presant life.
ATHENA ONANISIS (BLANKENSHIP & ONANSIS MEANS THE SAME EAANVIKA)
DEANNA LEIANN MCCOY BLANKENSHIP WILSON aka Athena Onasiss
THE ALPHA AND OMEGA
June 18 never believe in a lie or love againI REALIZED TODAY, THAT I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR SOMEONE WHO DOES NOT LOVE ME AT ALL, HE ONLY LOVES A DEMON WHORE WHO HE PUTS BEFORE HIS TRUE WIFE.
I REFUSE TO DO THIS ANY MORE, I HAVE GIVING EVERYTHING TO THE LORD JESUS CHRIST, MY BLOOD MY TEARS, MY HEART, AND I GET IN RETURN A BROKEN HEART, BROKEN SPIRIT, BROKEN HEART, AND PAIN THAT WONT GO AWAY, BECAUSE I SEE AND HEAR THAT HE WOULD RATHER HAVE A EVIL DEMON WHORE WHO IS NOT APART OF ME, AND LEAVE ME BY THE WAYSIDE.
GOD HELP ME
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO BELIEVE IN
ALL I HAVE IS THE LIVING WORD OF GOD AND THE TRUTH AND THE TRUTH HURTS ME SO BAD I DO NOT WANT TO BREATH April 22 For What it's WorthFor What it's worth, I am only kidding myself and everyone else when I say I am starting over again, I will never be able to get over Cody Jones, after all he has my heart , soul and my mind.
I just wish I could see him , But God does not answer my prayers anymore when it comes to my personal life.
I have been so deppressed i dont eat, I just sleep I think I have lost about 20 pounds in the past month .One good outloook on that issue is that I will be ready for bikini weather. Guess it;s time to start laying out in the sun,
I think I will be making a trip to Dallas after 3:00 pm todya and stay there until early friday morning.
There is nothing exciting here in West Monroe, LA and beleive it or not some friends want me to come back to Dallas
for afew days.
Maybe I will be able to get my mind off of Cody for a while. Who knows, that seems to be what consumes me all day everday. April 21 STARTING OVER AGAINWell I am starting my life over once again, adn letting go of things and people who seem to keep holding me back from my destiny. I went to Dallas last week to pick up my son William, after he moved to West Monroe, with me and then thought he would go to Dallas for a few days and then come back, whicf, he didnt, so i went to get him, needless to say, he broke my heart, as well as someone else by the name of Cody Jones. I had hoped to see him while I was on Dallas, after all everyone else has seen him, except me. I know now after writing to him in jail, alll the things he said was total crap, especially him saying he had hoped that I would have a place to live so he could come see me. Well i got a place to stay and have been waiting and waitng amd truthfully I am tired of waiting. I am moving out of the apartment at the end of the month., that way I wont be HOPING that he comes to see me.
After I get out of this apartment I am going to start looking for someone to spend time with, because this being alone crap is for the birds. Life is too short to spend it alone.
Who know's I could keep praying that my TRUE LOVE WOULD MAGICALLY APPEAR but who am I kidding, just myself. After all TRUE LOVE does not exisit. and that is my thought for the day. April 17 new tattooDecember 29 OMG!!!I have had the worst week, except for hearing from Cody, this week has sucked, I find out my Mother has been druging my Grandmother, where the popr women has stayed up for three days, and she tells me this morning that she is taking my Grandmother to the hospital, but does not, and instead takes off to go get her car window fixed. Sound's like someone needs to call Adult Protective Services on the EVIL b*$%* DENNISE. OMG!!!!!!!!!!!! December 19 Another Day with the GirlsWell I picked Marissa up this morning in Collingston, and then we wnt to pick up her best friend Cheryl, we are having a girls day, just hanging out, and having fun. Marissa was embarrising me half to death coming over to the library, The girl's wanted to ride around with my top down on my car, and Like I said Marissa was acting a fool. She did have me rolling tho. The gorls asked me to bring them to the library, so we all could get on the internet, I am definatley not use to going somewhere public to do what it is I do on the internet. Lol at least we are having fun doing what it is we are doing. So anyways, I did not go to work last night in Jackson , Moss, I decided to stay home since the fog was so bad from West monroe, to Jackson, and ended up going to Safari and selling some clothes that i no longer wear to Dance in, at least some one will get some good use of some beautiful garmets that i refuse to wear, since someone I can not stand bought them for me.
I will be going in tonight tho. I did make a little bit of cash from selling my stuff last night, and I went to the grocrie store, and bought me some food, and actually cooked my first meal at my new apartment. Talk about some improvement. I now have food in my ice box, that drives me crazy from the noise it makes,, and I dont have to go out to get me something to eat.
Well I hope people start reading my blog again, it seems as if i have lost all my friends.
Once aginn I wish everyone a Merry Christmas, and I have to say i hope Cody is not so mad from my last letter to him, that he does not write me back, I love that man so much, and miss him, I really hope that he does make the trip to come see me and soon.
December 18 Been ALONG TIME SINCE I BLOGGED **CATCH-N-UP a letter from DeOkay now , I know it has been a while since I have actually blogged, but I have really good reason 's for such a long delay. I finaly got an apartment back in Louisiana, in West Monroe, but i have been working in Jackson Mississippi, so I have been having to drive an hour and 45 minutes just to work.
My life is nothing but work, slep and drive. IT SUCKS!! I am alone all the time except for when I go to work,
I owe everybody, plus some, and really trying my hardest to come up out of this hole I have dug for myself.
Linda and me are back to being best-friends, in fact, I have Marissa with me right now, i picked her up from school today, and we came to the library to use the computer, ***My son broke my laptop I got last time I had blogged*** Anyway's I have been really busy with my life. Sorry for such the long Delay!!!!!
I had gotten a few good letter's from Cody since I have last wrote in here, But needless to say I am upset with him, since I waited a month and half to get a phone call from him and never did, so I decided to change my phone number last Thursday, a week ago today, and that is when he decided to try to call.
Just a little to late..... It is not that I have someone else cause I don't and I really still love him , and always will, I am just going to have to do that from afar, and let him go. I feel like I was being played like a guitar..hmmmm, And I'm well aware that was the deal. So anyways I let him know exactly how I felt. I am not sure if I will hear from him again or not. I hope I do.
Anyway I have to leave West Monroe, at 5:30 to be at work by 7, or at least by 6. i have been working at a place called Danny's Downtown. It does ot matter where I go to work I have been having the same problem of getting my license. Which I have a Mississippi & Louisiana one.
Here's a Me & my Mom update, it seems as if the holiday's have had an imapct on her in the love department, the last few times we have spoke on the phone she has told me that she loves me. ** That is a rare ocassion to say the least, especially after the year we have had this year.
Well I to try to blog often, I will try !!!! Merry Christmas and Happy holidays, ****Remember Christ is the reason for the season, not for someone to just recieve a gift!
It is Christmas for me everday of the year.
love to all
De
November 24 Busy Busy Busy BUT I COMPLETED MY MISSION FOR THE WEEKWell for the last two days I have been extremely busy., Yesterday I went and visited my Dad's graveside since I have not been there in two months. I really miss that man and can't wait until I see him again. I actually sat on his grave and cried. Today I went back to Louisiana and got the photo I.D. that I needed to go to work while I am here in Dallas, so I can save some money and once again get me a place to stay.that was a 6 hour total drive time trip. I had to peel myself out of the car. I am so thankful that I made it back to Dallas on the funds that I had, and safely I might add. This trip was the first time I actually wrote a letter while I was driving down the road, on cruise control, to Cody., talk about multi-tasking. lol Last night my son, broke my new laptop and did not tell me about it until I questioned him, after he snuck out of the house to go s3ee one of his girlfriends last night. I swear sometime's kid's can be a total pain in the rear.! Any way I thought i would sit down at his computer and do today's blog, before I leave to go find me a job somewhere in town. I am still honestly thinking about, one of my girlfriend's and I might go back to Louisana and go to work, at the place I was working at last week. That way I can definatley get enough funds for my new place. That's my thought for the day! November 23 Your on my Mind, like always Here I am thinking of you, like always, that is what you do to me.
I am truly sorry that we have not been communicating. This time I take all the blame.
I miss my friend that I trust so much. I guess you will be happy with
your girl and all. Am sorry I let you down.
It feels like a lifetime since I have heard from you. I guess I wont be anytime soon. I wish tho that I could see you and hug you so tight.
But I dont think I will get the chance.
I was so worried when the fire stuck the house, only because I didnt know if your letters would be burned or left untouched, I praised the Lord when I found them unharmed.
I guess I will go write you a letter and send it off tomorrow.
I miss you Cody, if you only knew how much
November 21 Chillin with my Kid for the nightWell I conveinced my mom to let me stay the night since it is going to freeze tonight. So I am chillin with my number 1 son Will, and his friends. Will is so happy I survived the fire, and has been taking good care of me with my smoke inhalation.
On the other hand it is really hard right now for me to get a new driver's license. I just might have to take another drive to Louisana and get a photo Id immediatley as soon as I can get my birth certificate.
I sat down and wrote Cody a letter since I have not heard from him. I guess he is mad at me again for the last letter I sent him. But I was mad at him for his last letter so I guess we are even.
Thw only problem is that I miss telling my best friend all the happining's that are going on, and I do not think he knows anything about the fire. He will though after I mail him the letter tommorow.
I truly miss hearing from him.
You really learn who your true friends are when things get rough or you realize who was never really your friend at all, and that my friends, is the NOTORIOUS LINDA LANE ARMSTRONG only out for herself, and what she can steal from others who try to help her.
And that is my thought for the Day
![]() EVERYONE LIKES TO KICK SOMEONE WHEN THERE DOWNI can't believe that my family and friend's will kick someone one they are down.
I have had the worst time trying to get my driver's license online , much less the money to get it .
Everyone of my family members are being difficult , And to make mattersd worse i am suffering from smoke inhalation , which I went to the hospital for.
Linda lied to the people who are helping her with a place to stay and said that I was not livining there in Monroe. W2hat a total bitch. I know I paid rent for two months and had mail going there but that does
not matter. I truly hope that selfish bitch get's whats coming to her. Especially after how I helped her with her daughter and buying them food and her cigarettes the whole time I was working.
I just hope I dont have to stay another cold night in my car thanks to Linda and Lisa starting the house fire and causing me to be homeless. I am sure I am sure I will end up getting pneumonia before it's all said and done since I already have spot's on my lungs due to the fire.
November 19 LIVED THRU A FIRE LAST NIGHTI know I have not wrote in my blog for a few days. I have much to sharewith my readers, I am fine, THANK THE LORD!!!!!!! Lat night my ex-roomate and EX- BEST FRIEND LINDA LANE ARMSTRONG and her new Friend of 7 days named Lisa Sharp decidied to start a fire in the fireplace, the dumbasses being all messed up in the first place on pills and who knows what else didnt open the flute. I cam e downstaires out of my room 3 times to tell them the smoke was too thick in my room, with the third time i walked out the back door and walkd back in and asked Linda for the gate opener, her reply was "I;Ll give you the G. -Damn opener when I get good and ready. So I said screw this, and got in my car and thankfully Marissa seen the base of the fire plqace on the outside and yelled the house is on fire. Everyone got out ok. But i honestly think that Linda would have left me there to Burn. She wqas tendeding the fire, . Yesterday allday, I spent in my room selcuded off from the others, becuase of all the comment Linda was making with her new Best Friend.
Truth be known Linda has been stealing from every shop in town and would brag about how everything she had in her house she stole. Well she lost everything. All of my things were spared THANK YOU JESUS I LOVE YOU! all day yesterday she kept saying the world did not revole around,me, and then blaming me for all her problems\, which I did not create. She is an ANTICHRIST IF IF EVERY MET ONE.
Here I am talking about the same girl who had a hand in what happened to me in 2002, when I was judged for my sins and brought back to life by the Lord. During the time my soul was out of my body, Linda came back to the house and cleaned up the heart pills laying bu my head, and then walked to her kitchen and turned the gas stove on . I will never forget that. I think the Lord is showing her just what she is getting. I just pray that thhe snitching bitch she is , that she does notplant something on me or in myh car. She ha been known to do that shit, to many people back in Dallas, Tx. I hope the Good Lord keeps me safe and out of her reach, and from all the evil she is capable of. Now I am homeless in a hotel that the SALVATION aRMY has put me in for 3 days I havent eaten in two days, and have no gas to get to work, to make money. i DONT KNOW WHAT i AM GOING TO DO. November 14 IM SO TIRED but ready to go to workWhat a night last night, I did have a good night at work, Me & Lisa got home about 4 this morning, and get this Linda calls me at 11 pm and tells me her car got stolen , evidently Melissa stole her keys before she left the house,and gave them to a black guy down the street in the apartements, and needless to say, Linda almost get's run over as she chased the guy out to the front of our house. Thankfully, on my way in as I turned into the street I seen the back end of her car with the lights on in the apartments nxxt to our townhome. I got in to the house and told Linda I seen her car. We got into mine & drove down the street and In fact it was her car, so we called the police,and they meet her over there, and she got her car back.
We didn't get to bed until about 5 am. and I dont think Linda went to bed, after all that she was really worried we disabled her car before we went to bed to where her car would not start since the guy still has her keys. all in all everything is recoverd and Linda is relieved she fell fown the stairs and her butt is black & blue she can barly walk, Marissa could not get up this morning so she did not go yo school.
I am so thankfu; that I have my own room even tho I am sleeping on the floor on pillows, , at least with Lisa spending th e night on Marissa''s room I was not wole ip. I still need more sleep but, I will make it. I cant wait to go back to work, since it is Friday, Lisa said I should make about $500.00 tonight. That would be great so I can pay my car off. Linda and I looking for a house as of today and get out of this neighborhood as soon as possible. We are going to get a four bedroom. cant wiait so my son Wil can move here with his Momma. November 13 GOING TO VICKSBURG,MISS 4 workI start my job tonight in Vicksburg,Miss. It's an hour from Monroe, but it will be worth it. Lisa and I will be sharing a ride, so it won't be so bad. I will be there five day's a week. Tuesday through Saturday .
I have to put all my free time into something so I can quit thinking about a person whom I will never be with again. So hopefully
Linda is all excited about the holiday's and me I am just like Yeah the holiday's.
I have a lot to work through still, and it is just going to be extremly hard, giving the circumsstance's
This year I have added problems that came up in September that only adds to my grief, with my
chi;dren and the loss of them.
I hope that one day I will find happiness and a Man that truly loves me even tho I know he won't be my Soulmate, I already know who that is, and because of his choices he is unavailable, & I have to let him go.
"That's My Thought For the Day"
November 12 WHAT A DAYOK well today started off with a phone call, that I answered and the person just sat there and did not say a thing, I wondered and still I am who that was. Anyways the miss B****h who just moved this past weekend called the electric company and had our electricity shut off, but it is back on now Obviously. I am fixing to have to go and get ready for work, I am having to drive forty miles to another place of business to get the cash.. Oh well just another day in my life. I have to be there by 7:30, and it is 6:20.
I hope I get to work. November 10 ALONE IN TRUTHAS I WALK IN TRUTH, I WALK ALONE
NO ONE BESIDE ME
NO ONE BEHIND ME
TRUTH AS IT IS THE UGLEST COLOR
I WILL ALWAYS BE ALONE
NO LOVE BESIDE ME NO LOVE WITH ME
CAUSE EVERYONE HATES THE UGLY TRUTH
EVERYONE HATES ME
FOR I WALK IN TRUTH
SO I WILL ALWAYS BE ALONE
AND WALK ALONE
AND BE UGKY IN THE TRUTH
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